Tag: My Dead Language

Deeply

I’m subdued

So fondly

I pursue

You

Forbidden

Kept in all I can swear upon

Upon my carefully emphasized charm

I keep for you

I dream altogether

After all, isn’t giving

A part of forgiveness

Yet you fainted under the purest image

I thought was you

Yes, it’s true.

You have ended

Faltering under my unfortunate gaze

I stand back disappointed and amazed

By Jennifer Barajas

It seemed so striking

Your face brighter than beyond the sun

I shudder to think

How easily you slipped past me

Silent eyes spread forth

And you’re not there

Not ever altogether

Your unconscious want

So impatient yet

So ready to soothe the world

Your arms a haven

A place to rest my head and

Spend some time in leisure

The chair you sat in

The bed where you lay

A place to repose

And forget the overwhelming noise

Of an uncaring day

Now you break apart

Hollow in a meaningless

Loveliness

A new sort of silence

For me to respect at a safe distance

It’s your sentiment

That makes you whole

But still enraged and

Climbing towards

A piece of nothing

That never did exist

If existence is you

Then wait patiently

There will be a day

When fate will come

To lead you from despair

Outside of judgment

Withdrawn from overwhelming contemplation

So for now I kiss you and your fear

Because right know my loneliness

Is loud enough to hear.

I celebrate you

Whether at my side

Or in my dreams

Even at a distance

You are still glory in its youth

Tender, even anxious despite your strength

You’ve caught me

Caught me when I didn’t realize

I was running

When I was too worried

To open my eyes

And vengeance roamed in me

Now I’m caught

Between your smile and your soul

Somewhere in between

I find myself

Once again whole.

When you finally see

I will have already passed through

And it will be too late

Yes, too late for you

I am old enough now yet still too young

To persist on loving you

In hopes you will stand beside me and watch

Love blossoming.

In beautiful people

In delicate remembrance

Of past heartaches and love lost

But refusing still, to desert what is rightfully yours.

I understand this is really one of God’s gifts,

One gift worthy of enjoyment.

Maybe it’s my youth

My optimism

My willingness to live by the sanctity of pure selflessness

And it is love that resides where you refuse to go

So you will never quite understand

Or even truly know

So none of my poems have any titles. I’m not sure why. I guess I’m not sure what to call them, I can’t commit to just one, or I’m afraid I will give some the same title. So right now, this is what it looks like. Post after post, not title, just the words.

From high to low

This is who I am, this is what I know

Some say displeasure

Others say in vain

For this I know existence

Somehow I feel no pain.

And as day begins to breathe

As I begin to pray,

All I need is in this love

To live

To beat

To stay

Now I may not be

Quite the color blue you wanted for your sky

But I always know when and

I never wonder why.

So because these days are precious and

Time has no reason to lie

I’ve tried and waited and

Sometimes hoped for something more

Somehow I still end up with

Just as much of nothing as before.

My love is silent to you

Because fear

Because my weight cannot hold

What the world cannot see

I’ve come to close to losing a little bit of everything

My everything

My one flushed moment in a day of cold stares

So what of such and wandering why

What of how and perhaps

An untouched somebody

Trying to find every which way

By: Jennifer Barajas

I have been dragged through hell

To get a little closer to heaven

All at the same time

Maybe at the wrong time

Time that was filled with good intentions

But I can still sink in shallow water

Without a thought

Without a wonder

Blessed those that know

The act of love and

Not merely its consequences

For it was over before

It really got started

The light is so blinding

I can barely feel the burn

I am too far now to feel

Anything but distance.