Tag: My Dead Language

Oh sure I knew

So did the sky

And it is a dark day

When you learn to see again

That you are far from knowing what

And having why

But now

Now I always am

Never to not be again

Maybe that’s okay

Because today hasn’t ended

And I’ve been known to bring light

Even into overwhelming day

JBW

This is the earth we breathe

And the air we surrender

It is the bonds we betray

The charisma we ignore

Yes everyone

We blister with preoccupation

Hoping for a better fate

Then what we can prepare

In all too human hands

Persistence is our virtue

Why we strive, our stride

Almost letting the good things go

I’m aware of how life could be lived

It seems miles and miles away

From where I sit wandering

Seemingly distant from all that is to real

It is that distance that gives us purpose

With each step we hope

To bring us by and by

When it is in you always

As much as  I

JBW

Memory dissolves reflection

So thousands are deprived

Deliberation leaves

But it still existed

There is evidence to prove that

I am truly

That I won’t know of want

That even brick by brick

 I can build and be rebuilt

My memory leans

Patient, obedient

Waiting, wanting to be remembered

Hoping to be seen

But reflection is my prison

Where I make my way down

I’ve been tossed

Flung aside

Just like anything useful has

But exploring eyes know the depth

Of wanderings worried

And secrets kept

I just can’t wait

For the waiting to be over.

To shout

To sing,

To just feel alive again.

To feel everything

Slipping through my fingers

And let it be

I am not as much

As I thought I was.

I thought my force strong

My genuine complexities tender.

Not so much more, but deep.

What matters is my heart skipped a beat,

And so I hang my head in inevitable defeat.

By JBW

He never promised me a bit of strength

So I became bold against the night.

But I remember him.

He meant everything even when I had nothing.

He said I hollowed him out,

That he was less of a man because of me.

Because of my life and the way that I am.

So I passed on.

And even with a different name,

I pursued him just the same.

So I search.

And even when beauty is rampant,

I somehow live without pleasure or praise.

So I search.

With a lulled sense of patience

That trails in disgust.

By JBW

Questionable

How slowly you drift away

But come upon yourself once more

You remain unrequited

Unloved

Untouched

By any word I speak

Or merely hold on my tongue

You-

A depth to be plunged

A darkness to be unfolded

You don’t ask for more than what you’ve got

It’s no secret, it’s hardly a lot

I will promise

I will pray

To savor all my past indifference

And embrace every well intentioned mistake

But you no longer crave togetherness

And your solemness is finally awake.

By JBW

You are so much my everywhere

So much my minds embrace

Defenseless I unfold against the winter

I am no match for the silence

You were a time when

I lived in best intentions

When there was more

To you then me

And I had a profound

Sense of purpose

But now it’s love

In full bloom

Everything you’ve ever wanted

And still can never forget

The kindest story

Of fortunes woes told

What really matters

Is all that matters

What really matters always fits

So what if what really matters

Has nothing to do with you

And everything to do with me

By JBW

Still stuck

She’s used up all her luck

On a life that wasn’t

Even worth the hassle

We are always beginning again

There is a sameness between us

How gallantly she rides

So boldly she survives

She lived among the ordinary

All she touched was light

But somehow she’s invisible

Does she realize

Will she even know

She’s the one I long to be

She’s the dream I had to let go

To save the life within me.

By JBW

I cling tight

To everything that bares

Itself from you

But there are ordinary voyages

And ships that have no harbor

I will surround you

From the inside out

I will worship you under

The bright soul of your sun

Side by side

We will ride

Half living

Half dreamed

A passion imperfect

Sometimes clumsy

Even with the utmost

Comfort and Brevity

Dripping with generosity

Beneath your fragility

Pride beams

That quickly dissolves

Into a blinding day

It was by no fault of your own

That my self-worth crumbled

I grew coarse

I grew grim

Now you see more

That what you really are

I can overcome

Your conquering over me

By JBW