If I am and not were
I could be for both you and myself
But I can’t and I’m not
So I choose me
I would love to love you
To bring truth to your humanity
To touch the deepest part of you that remains unseen
Instead I will melt away – evaporate
Almost as if I never existed at all
No memory I told him
No certainties he asked
Just a hopeless case of love gone wrong
Or possibly gone right
But I’d give it all up for selflessness
To let you become bigger and better
Than what might come to life in my imagination
The beauty, the sensation of your touch
All I want is to be remembered
Not too little
Not too much
Jennifer Barajas
A Dead Language 